I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience myself as down now that I am back in the city I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to go into emotional feeling and justify going into emotional felling now that I am in the city I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe i have a valid reason to go into emotional feeling I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel stuck in the city I forgive myself that I have acceted and allowed myself to feel hopeless now that I am back in the city I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within hopelessness related to being back in the city with no money I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expeirience hoplessness related to money becasuse i currently dont have a cash flow and I have allowed myself to see this as a common thing for me and then within this go into self defeat I forgive myself that I have accetpted and allowed myself to exist within my mind - thinking about all the ways that the system is bigger than me and I am not making money I forgive myself that I have accetped and allowed myself to go into self defeat related to money and self movement, within this accepting and allowing myself to do nothing but sit around